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The Source Of My Fear Revealed (READ ALL EDITS)

Mon Jul 21, 2008, 9:59 AM
Please read this and comment, if you wish.
I want to figure this out, and i'd appreciate anybody who's willing to help.
You may comment here, or Note me.
It's been years now, but i'm finally ready to talk!
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Oookay..this is just..something I gotta get off my chest.
I've only told a few people this story in real life, but I gotta share it here.
I don't give a damn whether you care or not, I just need to tell this.

A while back, maybe four or so years ago (Shit, has it been that long?!), I was at a friend's house and picked up one of his comic books and began to read through it.
(I have a habit of picking up and reading anything I see)

I came across an ad for.. a certain game. A certain game that would utterly destory the next four years of my life.
I know that may sound kind of extreme for a stupid little add for a stupid(er) little game, but you gotta understand, my brain is a little..messed up from the meds I was on while I was in the hospital.
When I was younger, I could see something, anything at all, and, if my brain 'clicked' on it, i'd be utterly terrified of it for an indefinate amount of time.
Fun fun.

Anyways, getting back to the story.

So, as I said, I was flipping through that comic book, and came across an ad for, what I found out years later to be, Earthworm Jim 3D.

Oh jeez, this must be getting to me. I'm physically shaking right now. Holy crap.

Alright, so, as I was saying, I was just looking at this ad. For some reason I just couldn't take my eyes off it.
Jim was sprawled out on a hospital bed, with a feeding tube in his mouth and an utterly weak and miserable look on his face.

As I remember, the lights in the ad were dim, illumitating only Jim and the hospital bed, the rest of the background pitch black.

What could have caused me to become afraid of, not only that one game, but the entire franchise from that one ad?
Was it another one of those brain 'clicks'?
Was it the art style?
Was it the lighting?

All these possibilities i've ran through my head a million times over, but i've never been able to think of an answer.

I only have a vague memory of the actual ad now, what I just described to you is exactly as I remember it.

Someday, I may search for that ad. I don't know if i'll find it, and I sure as Hell know I don't want to, but sooner or later, i'm gonna have to.

Thanks for listening. :heart:

EDIT: ~spykethewolf made a very interesting point. He said it could have reminded me of those years I was in and out of the hospital when I was little.
I'd never even considered that before, but that is something to think about.
So, thanks, Spyke, for bringing me one step closer on the road to recovery. :heart:

EDIT(2): You know what? Maybe if, by any chance, you find the ad I described, you could link me to it?
I don't know where you're gonna find it, or if I can handle it, but maybe if I re-anylize it now that my fear is over, I might be able to just shrug it off.
That would be a huge improvment on my part. ^^

And, again, thanks. :heart:

EDIT(3): Try looking for it on Photobucket or some other image-hosting site or whatever. Maybe it'll be there.

..though, I don't see what the point is, 'cause i'm pretty sure i'm not gonna be able to look at it.

But, if you DO find it, Note me with a DESCRIPTION of it. NOT the link. Just a DESCRIPTION.
I just wanna see if I remember it as well as I think I do.

EDIT(4): I checked. It's not on Photobucket. Did find a couple of art thieves, though. And a really hot picture of Princess WHN that I may use as an avatar someday.

..i'm totally gay for her.

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Hm. I can't begin to understand why a picture would frighten you, I mean, what with your medication and all I have no idea what kind of processes your brain goes through to decide that it's terrified. My girlfriend takes medication that occasionally makes her afraid of things that aren't actually there, so it's not totally unreasonable that a picture could freak you out. And hey, maybe it doesn't scare you anymore, maybe the next time you look at you won't feel anything.

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I really don't know why it scared me so badly.
I might have been switching pills, so I was being weaned off, it might be the pills I was on weren't working properly (That's happened more than once). It might not even be about the pills at all.
And you're right, maybe someday, i'll see that picture again, and I won't be scared at all. :3

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Wow. I'd say I can sympathize, but I really can't.
That totally blows. :S I'm still confused though; was it just the ad that scared you? Or did it make you afraid of the entire franchise?

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That's what i'm still wondering.
I was scared of the whole thing, but it could've just been how fucked up the art style in the ad was. (As I recall)

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Could be

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Meds are tough to deal with, especially the stuff that people take for depression and other mental illnesses. I remember my depression meds turned me into an emotionless zombie and made me sleepy all the time...

Anyways, I hope the meds weren't doing something weird to you...it really kinda sucks when they do that to you...

:(

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I've had meds do a bunch of different things to me.
They'd make me irritable, I wouldn't be able to piss, a bunch of things. Xo

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Oh, mai. I'm sorry...

...And I thought losing my sense of emotions was bad...

*crawls under a rock in shame*

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i think it might have reminded u of being in the hospital.

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